Friday, February 26, 2010
THE confrontation
11:09:00 PM
I finally did it.. I told mummy about us..
It all started when Naj told me that she will get married by end of this yr..
I was soo excited for her that I was caught up in that fantasy.
Mainly cos I was amazed at how she was able to get married on such short notice and using her own $$ for the expenditure..
So when I was on the train back home I thought how about me? I want to be aware of my future.. When I am allowed to have my own future.. However I was still indecisive on telling her abt aliff..
But one would ask y are u asking such a thing.. Do I have someone
in mind? I decided hell she might as well know the truth..
True enough she told me 24-25 is a suitable age. Y got someone in mind? Then I was like damn.. K tkpe proceed.. I said I think you know who.. Immediately, sape? Si Ali tu? Tada.. Mummy so clever.. Haha
I told her la that we care for each other and are very very close friends. I mention that if u were to marry he'd be my choice.. I told her that I am not that kinda person who throws it all away.. I have my dignity and my own believe.. I said she should know how I was brought up.. Then she responded it's good that you know how to take care of yourself..
I told her that I didn't want to lie anymore, it hurts me so bad that my own mother doesn't Noe.. I want her to know..
I asked as a mother what do you wante to full fill as your child before I make such a decision? She said just do what you are doing now, dnt forget your parents.. Help us with the financial like you are doing now..
She also gave me advise like must start learning how to cook, maintain the house.
I asked her what she feels about aliff. She said that she find that he looks like a gd person.. She asked about his job, siblings and age.. And the ultimate question......! How did you know him.. I had to tell her.. From the Internet but I made it clear that my intension wasn't to find a bf just kenal dgn dia through phone over a period of time aru jumpa..
Which were hard and actual facts.. Over 3 months then we met..
It ended... I thanked her for listening.. And silently for understanding... :) life just got much calmer.. I feel peace after 5 years...
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Wow... It's been a while
7:36:00 PM
Haha.. It has been almost a year I think.. And I bet I won't be able to keep this up. But hey, if i do it better than nothing right.
I just reached home about half an hour ago..
Will be going out for a jog at the park behind azlina's.. This will also mean reunion with her!
Working and schooling at the same time is amazingly time consuming.. At times it feels like you forgot to breathe. But the children and my passion keeps me going.
I'm making a trip up to genting highlands soon.
Shawn's birthday is coming up.
I'm really paranoid abt my future.
Parents have been trying to stay off my back cos they can see I'm damn tired all the time with my assignment.
Speaking of which, can you imagine I have two anecdoctal yo write within one week. It's kinda an observation of the child's development and how we can check or relate it to the theories. Haha.. And some people still wana call us expensive nannies.. Pardon me madam but back..... Off! Just so you bloody know we are known as development psychologist..
I'm so glad and proud to be a preschool educator. Seeing the child everyday, knowing that they are happy to see us and that we are a part if their most important developmental mile stone is what matters.
Haha.. I better shut it now.. I bet no one is reading this... Haha.. Amalina here.. Logging off!
